I’ve been handed a similar 3-month lapse between knowing I’m going to Japan and actually arriving. As a to-be ALT, I have no delusions of grandeur. Your blog has helped solidify that.
As much as my brain tells itself this is a real thing that will really become reality – like really- , my body responds simply with the same aching feedback derived from a couple part-time jobs.
I’ve spent some time in Japan – and I have all these artifacts to prove it – but I still believe it to be fantasy. Not some perfect haven, just a world that doesn’t seem to sync with the one I’m currently experiencing.

Anyway, I’m trying to take your advice and not worry too much about it. Prepare for my travel, yes, but not to anticipate my emotions until I have the reason to feel them (paraphrased from your article about flying).

Thanks for writing – I hope to find my own path of expression when I start to really feel things about stuff.